After a few nights of some heavy thinking and contemplation I have finally gathered myself enough to come on here and start becoming active again. I saw a surprisingly large amount of encouraging feedback on my Haitus journal and I have to say that hearing all of those encouraging things from everyone who commented really warmed my heart. With that said I would like to thank those who thought of me enough to do that, it was really sweet of you.
Now in regards to what happened i'll keep it brief and to the point with saying that it was mostly stress, a lack of self worth, and a few other things tossed in the mix. Overall I felt as if anything I did amount toward very little, while others were miles ahead leaving me behind. Although I came to a realization that while I may not be accomplishing a large amount with my self, it's all apart of rising to be an artist. While I still may be nervous about entering a professional art field with the skills I have now; hopefully with enough persistance I can qualify for what I am aspiring to in the future. Nothing is accomplished from sulking, and while I may not feel great about that's going on I can't keep myself from continuing what I love. I've also failed to see how many have had faith in me this whole time, which is something that I don't want ignore.
Overall I realized that even with the small ripples i'm making it's a big ocean in art, and maybe my chance to make a large wave on others with my art will only come if I keep throwing in stones.
That's all I have to say for now, Thank you again everyone for supporting me on here. Expect some new art soon.